The holiday season made me so occupied with lots of things. But I’ll surely post new entries here soon as I can. I need to prepare my self for a really loaded year ahead. Thank you to all those who are and still visiting my blog! God bless everyone! 
It is four minutes before 6PM as I start to write this entry. I just finished my routinary ‘aero dance’ with my niece. The view from my room’s window is completely surrounded by the looming dark night. Cold seasonal wind chills my spine. Natasha Bedingfield’s ‘Soulmate’ cries from my laptop’s speakers. The music, I think, is written for someone like me :) I wish I could perform that on drums or piano, if only I know how to. It’s one of my frustrations. If our church could buy a new set of musical instruments soon, maybe our music ministry can teach me to play least one instrument.
Then, suddenly I’m blanked. I’m without a direction what to write about. Staring at the immaculate white MS Word before me, a chat suddenly popped out from my screen. It was my former officemate. Asking for forgiveness and for us being at least ‘civil’ to each other. I can’t. Now. Just for once, please, allow me to be unkind. Sometimes, I wanna get tired of being so kind and understanding to people. Because no matter how nice and sincere you can be to them, they can still return your kindness with pain. God must be frowning at me now. I am so sorry. In due time, I guess, I can be ‘civil’ with them. The pain, I guess, has made me so numb. Again and again. And again.
This was one of those blogging moments when I will start to write a new post then stop because I really don’t have an exact thing in mind to discuss about. I just wanna write and pour out all my thoughts at the moment. And so this post was continued after about almost a month. Lol!!! I got so busy practicing for FilWeb Asia’s Writing Department’s bid to defend our championship (We have this FilWeb Idols talent competition every Christmas party). Add to that the inconvenient scenario at home the past month due to some repair and renovation works. At least now I can sigh with relief that it’s all over now. Our Christmas party was held last night.
I started to appreciate this guy back in 2006, when I saw him again after several years. His pains and struggles made us somewhat ‘close,’ I thought. He made me wanted to care for him. But I was holding back the feelings. It was too awkward. My appreciation for him, I guess, wants/needs to take a back seat for now. I don’t wanna yearn for someone who’s attention is not mine. Or maybe, really not meant for me at all. To let go of it and to surrender this aspect of my life to Him, I’m posting this poem for you to mark my farewell to that emotion. Weeh… So emo! LOL!!! I’ve actually made this poem in 2008 pa. The poem is more than a year old already.
Self Defense
Nag-uubos ka lang ng load,
Everytime na nagti-text ka
Ng tungkol sa buhay mo at sa kahit anong bagay.
Wala ka lang makausap,
Sa tuwing pinagti-tripan mo akong asarin,
Na parang natutuwa ka pa
Kapag naiinis na ako.
Common na sanyong mga lalake
Yung magpa-asa, magpa-sakay.
Na pag naniniwala na kaming mga babae,
Bigla nyo kami bibitawan.
Di lang naman
Ikaw ang na-encounter kong
Ganun. Nagkalat ang mga
Tulad nyo. Bakit nga ba nagkalat
Ang mga tulad nyo?
Ayoko na. Siguro
Nag-expire na rin
Kung ano mang paghanga
Na meron ako sayo.
Di mo rin naman kasi napapansin.
Hindi na lang ako aasa na
Baka nga gusto mo talaga ako kausap,
Na somehow,
May puwang na ako
Sa manhid mong puso.
Magbababad na lang rin siguro
Ako sa anaesthesia.
Tulad mo…
Welcome to Letters of Spica!
When I was just a little kid, I have always been fascinated by anything related to stars. There’s something about them that really draw my attention even up until this time. They are a joy to watch at night time when they are the only shining things up there. When I feel like watching the night sky and heavy, dark clouds hide them, I get sad (Weeehh.. emo?! Lol!!).
This fascination actually is more of just reading some stuff about them every now and then and just watching them and ‘talking’ to them at times. It never get to the point when I will actually collect items star-shaped and all. I just simply love them.
So, when I thought of creating a blog name, ‘Spica’ instantly got into the picture. Spica, Wikipedia says, is the brightest star in the constellation Virgo, which is my zodiac. Hmm.. Me mentioning about zodiac is and will be rare since I am really not that much into horoscope. It just so happened that stars and Spica are related to it
Then, why Letters from Spica? Not much to explain about it actually. I just want to include Spica on the blog title :) Letters from Spica will contain and speak about my loud whispers and silent shouts.
I would like to make this blog my official blog If ever, my Friendster blog will mirror some of my entries here. God bless everyone
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